Today is the last day of classes. Boy am I happy for them to end. I could not stand 5 out of my 6 classes. The only class I really loved and enjoyed was Public Speaking. I went into that class thinking how much I would hate that class. I am not the person who likes to be the center attention and I can get shy in big crowds. This class happened to break me out of my comfort zone and helped me be less nervous. Usually, I'm shy and once I learn about the people I am around, I start to be more comfortable and more myself. If you know me, you will know I am actually a talkative person.
It's funny to think of my first day here on campus. I could not find any of the classes, I was always lost and was thinking, "what the heck did I just get myself into?" But, it was all worth it in the end. I feel like this semester was a huge trial for me. I was still figuring out who cared for me and who was not my friend. I had to get use to living with roommates and not wanting to scream my head off at any of them. I also grew up. Okay,I still have things to work on and need to grow up more. Throughout life we continue to grow and to grow up.
Before I came out here I would get attitudes with anyone and be quick to snap. I would not listen or do the things I needed to do, but with being out here I had to learn some of the adult responsibilities and just grow up and learn that life is rough. Life is never easy, we have to work on it and hope we can get by.
College has taught me that I need to stop procrastinating and to actually learn the essentials I need for my career. Out here I relied on my faith and promptings to know what I should do.
As I was finishing up my Public Speaking class this morning I realized that I should have a better attitude when it comes to people and to classes. Like I said in the beginning, I detested a lot of my classes because they showed me that I did not want to go into Public Relations, but that I wanted to become an elementary education.
Life is about to take me back to Maryland for the next four months. I've missed how green it is, my bed, home cooked meals, my family, my dog and my friends. Yet, on the same hand, I learned to love Idaho and now can say it is a home too. I've met some amazing people that has made me feel like I am worth something, that I am beautiful and I've met people who can make me seriously happy. I'm not ready to leave them during this four month break, but I have to, even though it hurts and it's hard. I'll miss the little things with them. With some friends like Riley and Laura, I'll miss running around campus laughing or walking up to the temple with them. With Kaisey, I'll miss going to the MC and talking to her or going up to the temple with her. I'll miss my FHE brothers and Julie, even though I didn't hang around them a lot, they were some really cool people. I'll miss talking to Kaitlyn. Then, there is one person I will miss a lot and that's Taylor. Taylor is a pretty special guy, he is the guy that has helped me realize who I am and what I want to become. He has made me realize that I really am pretty or beautiful and that I shouldn't let little, small things bother me. I'll miss his hugs and him holding my hand and just being around me. I hate to admit this, but I will miss him tickling me to get me in a better mood. He is my best friend and a great boyfriend. I'll miss all the small and big things about him. These people have changed my life and have changed it for the better. I want them to know I am so grateful for them. I may miss them during these next several months, however I have something to look forward to and that is coming back in April to see most of these amazing people and being able to be around them. They will always be here.
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